The Bagel of Irony

Hey guys,

My two fasts for the week are up and I now have a week of 300 calories a day. It's really weird but when I can eat my body is all like "I hate this" to the point where I find it difficult to swallow and food makes me feel ill, but when I'm fasting, all I think about is food. O.o

I woke up this morning with the usual "oh yay, I can eat now but I kind of don't want to" feeling I get when I've been fasting, despite the fact that 10 hours before I would've killed my own sister for a bagel (well, the one I like the least, anyway). Half an hour later, I'm so hungry I could eat my sister AND a bagel. I go to the kitchen and guess what? We have NO food. If I hadn't been so irritated I would've laughed.

I pace up and down the kitchen for about an hour, panicking about what to have because pretty much the only food we have left is cheese, bread and chocolate spread. Luckily, my godparents came home and decided we should go food shopping.

The golden rule of shopping is this: never go grocery shopping hungry. Aisles and ailes of food. Nothing but food. Tasty tasty food. Fruit and vegetables and cheese and lasagne and bagels and pain au chocolat and puddings and cake and...*drools* Anyway, despite not having food for 42 hours by this point, I miraculously manage to restrain myself. I get food that can be frozen, some bagels, some low fat cheese slices (these never go off because they're so processed there's nothing in them to go bad), some angel delight and some oranges.

The part of this story I wanted to share with you guys is this: I was walking through the supermarket, carrying my bagels to our shopping trolley and I walked past this girl, she must've been about 12 or 13, who looked longingly at my bagels and then slightly lifted up her shirt to have a look at her tummy. She then went to get some low fat granary bread. I thought "that's weird" so I took a sneaky look at her cart when I went back to get jam and even though she was with her parents it was mostly fruit, water and diet Coke. Make of that what you will.

After all that, I give you the results of my fast:

Height: 5ft 4in

Weight: 150lbs (-2lbs)

Hips: 38.39in (-1.17in)

Waist: 29.33in (-0.20in)

Left Thigh: 22.64in (-0.49in)

Right Thigh: 22.24in (-0.40in)

I cannot tell you how happy I am about reaching 150. I have officially lost 14lbs (1 stone) in 5 weeks!

8lbs to go and I'll be the weight I was before I went to uni last September. 10lbs and I'll have reached my first goal. I've joined a weight loss competition on Ana Friends: 28lbs in 12 weeks. So I guess I now have 26lbs to go on that front.

After we got back from grocery shopping, I had the bagel that I had been craving so desperately for about 4 days. Now my stomach hurts like hell. Irony is clearly the best kind of humour. On that note, here is my meal plan for today:

Breakfast (This is more like lunch as I had it at 3pm)

Cinnamon and Raisin Bagel - 115cals

2 low fat processed cheese slices - 74cals

Herbal Tea - 2cals

Hot lemon water - 1cal

Total: 292cals

Dinner (because lunch at this point is, well, pointless)

1 Quorn goujon - 57cals

1 Live Well wrap (Tesco) - 165 cals

1 tsp sour cream - 27cals

1/2 oz (12.5g) cheese - 45.5cals

Handful of sweetcorn - 12cals

1/2oz (12.5g) tomato purée - 21.5cals

Total 328cals

Snack

Half a Daim bite: 2cals

Grand Total: 622

I can never seem to get up to 800 without binging, no matter how hard I try O.o I might use the extra 178cals for a hot chocolate before bed. I haven't had one in so long. I'll post a 300 calorie day next time so you have the full repertoire and I might post a few recipes up at some point.

Tomorrow, I'm making Victoria Sponge cake that I'm not eating. The fun never ends :3

Today's thinspo:

I've been on such a Firefly binge lately. I'm re-watching the whole series while I do step-aerobics and then watching Serenity. So I give you Sean Maher (the most beautiful man alive) and Summer Glau (the most gorgeous woman alive). Enjoy!

Today's quote:

"I can show you how to do-si-do. I can show you how to scratch a record. I can take apart the remote control and I can almost put it back together." - Handlebars by Flobots

I put this up because I think we should take a day where we focus on the things we can do rather than the things we can't :) For example, I can fit my whole fist in my mouth. What can you do?

Five Song Playlist for Today

1) Oltremare by Ludovico Einaudi

2) All Is Full of Love by Bjork

3) This Ain't A Love Song by Scouting for Girls

4) Heart-Shaped Glasses by Marilyn Manson

5) Sophomore Slump or Comeback of the Year by Fall Out Boy

Enjoy them. The Ludovico Einaudi track is 11 minutes long but it's so beautiful it's worth it.

Have a great morning, day and night, lovelies!

Sorry this one's been so long.

Analise.