Last Week Sucked

Well, I've been reading other pro-ana blogs since my last post to get more of an idea of what I should be posting here etc. A lot of them are really impressive. A-rexi-saurus really made me laugh and and The Diary of AfricAnaMia has loads of really great tips and thinspiration music so go have a look. I've posted the links in the Pro-Ana list at the bottom of the page :)

Okay, so last week to now just sucked. I ate too many calories (Dominos - you will be the death of me >.>) and didn't exercise enough. Result? No weight loss. No weight gain either, which I suppose is something but still.

I've decided that the problem is partially my ex-boyfriend's house. Whenever I go there, his mom makes me food and when I say "no thank you, I'm not hungry" she makes it anyway and so I'm left with this plate of food that I don't really want to eat but she's looking at me, expecting me to eat it. I've decided to avoid his house like the plague for the next week or so. Ideas on how to get around this, people?

So without further ado, here are my stats, as of today:

HW: 164lbs

CW: 155lbs

LW: 135lbs

GW1: 140lbs

GW2: 125lbs

GW3: 110lbs

Hips: 40.16in (-0.39in)

Waist: 31.69in (-5.33in)

Right thigh: 23.03in (0.79in)

Left thigh: 23.03in (-0.99in)

Losing inches from my waist makes me jump-up-and-down happy! I miss my 28in waist.

My period is due any day now so I feel a bit bloaty, which probably contributes to the lack of weight loss but I'm determined to soldier on. I did really well today. No food for 25.5 hours now and I don't feel hungry. I burnt off 420 calories today. Let's hope I can do the same tomorrow.

I've found a great alternative to caffeine which means I'm off tea and coffee entirely now. I don't like to drink either that much because caffeine reduces circulation, which can make your skin lumpy and I don't need to have hideous skin as well as be fat. So yeah, I've started sucking on barley sugar candy when I need a pick-me-up. It's really good for exhaustion and it's only 21 calories, less than sweet tea and coffee.

The only catch is that I can't have them when I'm fasting, which is when I need them most, but on the other hand, I only drink water when I fast so that rules out tea and coffee anyway.

Anyway, I'll update my stats on Wednesday, I think, when I've finished this fast. I'm hoping to get below 150lbs by the end of the week but with my period due, I'm not that optimistic.

Enjoy today's thinspo pic. Love Keira Knightley but I think I'll find a better shot of her collarbones next time - they're beautiful :)

Today's thinspiration quote: "'Eat all the junk food you want as long as you cook it yourself.'

That gets at a lot of our issues. I love French fries, and I also know if I ate French fries every day it would not be a good thing. One of our problems is that foods that are labor or money intensive have gotten very cheap and easy to procure. French fries are a great example. They are a tremendous pain to make. Wash the potatoes, fry potatoes, get rid of the oil, clean up the mess. If you made them yourself you’d have them about once a month, and that’s probably about right. The fact that labor has been removed from special occasion food has made us treat it as everyday food. One way to curb that and still enjoy those foods is to make them. Try to make your own Twinkie. I don’t even know if you can. I imagine it would be pretty difficult. How do you get the cream in there? - Michael Pollan"

Taken from Vodka Has No Carb's blog (thank you!), who got it from (http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/2010/01/08/michael-pollan-offers-64-ways-to-eat-food/?hpw)

Side note: I'm glad they don't make Twinkies in the U.K. - I'd spend 90% of my life trying not to eat them!

Also, I think I might be cracking a bit. I was just eating the ice cubes from my iced water and one of them tasted like ice cream, the next one tasted like coffee O.o

Catch you on Wednesday!

Love, love, love.

Analise